I admit it

What did I do today? More importantly, what happened to me today?

Fourth period (AP bio) was what nearly set me off. There's this one kid who sits next to me and, every day, makes strange (and often unnecessary) breathing noises. I know he has asthma, but most of my asthmatic friends don't make such noises. To make matters worse, he had gum in his mouth, and every five seconds, he would make a sucking/cracking sound with it.

I told him to stop at least ten times. Every one of those times, he denied doing it. The combination of breathing and gum noises was almost enough to tip me off. I'll be honest--part of me just wanted to smack him in the face. But I didn't. I resisted that urge.

After that period, during lunch, I was still in that same foul mood...and I let that get the better of me. I snapped at people, not thinking of how they would feel. Now that I think about it, I feel sorry, but at the same time, I don't. Maybe it was because I was sick of being called "the end of the world," according to Al Gore (it's a joke that some people interpreted stupidly). Or maybe it was because of the fact that I was upset with a bunch of people in general.

Whatever the case, I did experience some important things today, things that I don't come across very often:

-It's really important to control emotions. Had I not been able to, I could've injured somebody, landed in the RC, or worse.
-There will always be people who will never listen, no matter how many times you talk to them. The easiest thing for me to do was to hit that kid and make him spit out his gum. But who am I to do such a thing? Just because it's easy doesn't mean it's RIGHT.
-It's not a matter of what happens, but how we deal with what happens.

To wrap things up, I really need to prepare for my finals. I just thought I'd let these thoughts out before I go completely insane.