Tuesday, June 2, 2009

How SHOULD I feel?

I haven't experienced one of these in a while, but it's happened, so I might as well write about it.

(This is for two specific people. I'm sure they'll read this sometime, and no, I'm not attacking you two.)

I know you two love to joke around and have fun. I do, too. But what you did just doesn't feel comfortable with me. Let's take it apart, piece-by-piece:

Whenever I see you two in the hallways, cafeteria, or wherever, you see me, you know I'm there, but you don't "respond." Instead, you look at me, giggle, and walk away. Now I can barely even talk to you two without you two "pretending" that I'm not there. This is part of why it's so hard to tell both of you how I feel about this.

I know it's a joke, but based on my own experiences and thoughts, it's not really what I call. Normally, I don't mind being called "cricket" and stuff like that, but when you two purposely walk away, I don't feel all that great. I don't blame you for not really knowing the similar experience I had two years ago, but it was one of the worst feelings I had for a while back then. Now it's not nearly as bad at all, but what you're doing isn't making me feel better, either.

I know you two intend no harm at all and would never do such a thing, and don't freak out, you two are still considered some of my best friends. I might be taking this too seriously, but all I ask is that you take into account what I'm saying here. Yes, sooner than later, I will find the chance to say this to you in person. I'm not afraid to do so.

Thanks so much.

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